the welsh assembly

lyrics

2009-08-08T17:23:00.001-07:00

startin to get my shit together for the studio time:

youre in my head:
lyrics

youre in my head
im almost dead
youre in my head
youre in my head
im almost dead
youre in my head
when i was a little boy
i saw the world
right between the eyes i know
and i saw, right between the eyes
youre in my head
im almost dead
youre in my head
youre in my head
im almost dead
youre in my head
and so we waited
anticipated
this feeling of doubt
it put me out
and so we wa-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-ait
anticipa-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-ate
this feeling of doubt
it put me out
youre in my head
im almost dead
youre in my head
youre in my head
im almost dead
youre in my head
when i was a little boy
i saw the world
right between the eyes i know
and i saw, right between the eyes
youre in my head
im almost dead
youre in my head
youre in my head
im almost dead
youre in my head

i've got a view:
lyrics

i've got a view
industrial zoo
but somehow
it all brings me back to you
what do i do
oh what do i do
these thoughts of you
keep coming back
why do you hate me
why do you hate me
why do you hate me
why do you hate me
all my friends think im lame
here i am with my nintendo again
all my friends left me again
here i am at the bitter end
ive got a view
industrial
but somehow
it all brings me back to you
what do i do
oh what do i do
these thoughts of you
keep coming back

interlaced:
lyrics

i wanna go outside
where the sun is shining
i wanna go for a walk
with the sun to my back
ive got a real cool story
that i just might tell
so gather round everybody
and listen well
i once lived here
i once died here
i once laid here
i once cried here
i once lived here
i once died here
i once lay here
i once cried here
interlaced
woah interlaced
now for the second time
interlaced
woah interlaced
woah woah
woah woah
woah woah
woah woah yeah

lovely blue eyed girl:
lyrics

version 1(new)
lovely blue eyed girl
you make me feel so young
i know better than this
but its apart of the opus
here we are on the river thames
did you know water has ten million different names
you wake up
next to an angel
how did it happen
oh so many questions
youre wonderin
whats goin on
oh who cares what a beaut she is
lovely brown eyed boy
you make me feel so real
i know better than this
but its apart of the opus
here we are on the road again
did you know that i have a twin
you wake up
next to an angel
how did it happen
oh so many questions
youre wonderin
whats goin on
oh who cares what a beaut she is
lovely blue eyed girl

version2
lovely blue eyed girl
you make me feel so young
i know better than this
but its apart of the opus
here we are on the river thames
did you know water has 10 million different names
you wake up
next to an angel
how did this happen
oh so many questions
youre wonderin
whats goin on
oh who cares
what a beat she is
lovely blue eyed girl
you make me feel so young
i know better than this
but its apart of the opus
here we are on the river thames
did you know water has 10 million different names
you wake up
next to an angel
how did this happen
oh so many questions
youre wonderin
whats goin on
oh who cares
what a beaut she is
lovely blue eyed girl

i went to iceland to see all the greenery
i saw all the sights yeah what fine scenery
what a fine sight to see
icelandic greenery
what a fine sight to see
icelandic greenery
i went to iceland to see all the greenery
i saw all the sights yeah what fine scenery
yeah what a fine sight to see
icelandic greenery
what a fine sight to see
icelandic greenery
i went to iceland to see all the greenery
i saw all the sights yeah what fine scenery
yeah what a fine sight to see
icelandic greenery
what a fine sight to see
icelandic greenery

sugar fairies dancing elves
dwell in the caves
cotton candy rainbows
happy face
big smile happy faces
red balloon
teddy bear with you in bed
smiley face
laugh and sing
dance play free wee
sing and play
be happy wee
when the sun sets
we dream dreams
peter pan sings
clouds smile moon winks
oo oo oo oo oo oo oo

comin over:
lyrics (need revision)

way - ay - ay - ay - ay - ay out
go - o -o -o -o -o down
comin over, my own, way-ay, out
comin over, my own, way-ay, out
way - ay - ay - ay - ay - ay out
go - o - o -o o -o down
comin over, my own way-ay out
comin over my own way-ay out
way - ay - ay - ay - ay - ay out
la la la la la la la la / bum bum
la la la la la la la la / bum bum-bum
la la la la la la la la / bum bum
la la la la la la la la / bum bum
go - o -o -o -o -o down
comin over, my own, way-ay, out
comin over, my own, way-ay, out
way - ay - ay - ay - ay - ay out
go - o - o -o o -o down
comin over, my own way-ay out
comin over my own way-ay out
way out
come on
way out
come on
la la la la la la la la / bum bum
la la la la la la la la / bum bum-bum
la la la la la la la la / bum bum
la la la la la la la la / bum bum
la la la la la la la la / bum bum
la la la la la la la la / bum bum-bum
la la la la la la la la / bum bum
la la la la la la la la / bum bum

goin to the uk:
lyrics

im packin my bags
and im goin outa here
and im goin
to the uk - ey - ey
im done with this
midwest suburbia
and im goin
to the uk - ey - ey
im tryin to get to the u-oo-oo-k
thats where im tryin to be-ee to-day
i really wanna be in the u-k
thats where i wanna be to-day
im tryin to get to the u-oo-oo-k
thats where im tryin to be-ee to-day
i really wanna be in the u-k
thats where i wanna be-ee to-day

this english boy:
lyrics

this english boy is growin old
he wishes for his home
not this boring home that he lives in
but the true-oo english coast
oh, this english boy is growin old
he wishes for his home
not this boring home that he lives in
but the true-oo english coast
rainey days and football fields
and pubs all down the road
walkin round the english towns
and all the places we know

lonely subway people:
lyrics

lonely subway people
sitting in their seats
lookin out the window
they want somethin to eat
do you wanna coffee
do you wanna tea
do you want two lumps
or do you want three
youre fallin out
of your cradle girl
and youre wonderin
bout this big wide world
oh yeah youre fallin out
youre fallin out
but i dont care
i dont care

blackburn bungalow
my olden eyes:

are so gone
been so long
since ive been home
my olden eyes
are so gone
been so long
since ive been home
ohh-ohh / ohh-ohh
ohh-ohh / ohh-ohh
ohh-ohh / ohh-ohh
ohh-ohh / ohh-ohh
my olden eyes
are so gone
been so long
since ive been home

seperatist movement
lyrics:

i'm formin a seperatist movement against the nation of boredom
space invasion and appreciation
im for progress in love and war
mass media overhaul at the conglomerate core
tic toc tic toc goes the clock on the wall
im goin for a media overhaul
im lookin for signs in the sky
but i cant find nothin in the night sky
ai-ai-ai /
ai-ai-ai
ai-ai-ai
ai-ai-ai-ai-ai
ai-ai-ai
ai-ai-ai
ai-ai-ai-ai
ai-ai-ai

@ andymans

2009-08-08T02:46:00.000-07:00

2009-08-08T01:10:00.001-07:00

our studio? maybe.

songs for the cd

2009-08-06T21:03:00.000-07:00

you're in my head
i've got a view
i wanna go outside
lovely blue eyed girl
icelandic greenery
sugar fairies
comin over
goin to the uk
this english boy
lonely subway people
blackburn bungalow
seperatist movement

these're the ones i could think of to run through a demo
i might have the words written out, i dont know
but i know 'em all by heart.

piss & vinegar and the salty bastards

2009-07-16T13:42:00.000-07:00

hey dude, Piss and Vinegar.

what made you come up with it?

cause youre a salty bastard

well i dont like it then

its a good name

it is yeah.

cause like... half the time youre pissed, and you wanna do whatever you wanna do. one way of explaining that or describing that is salty bastard or piss and vinegar. you know what you could call yourself? piss and vinegar and the salty bastards.

thats pretty good.

so youre piss and im vinegar, and the reason is cause i like salt n vinegar chips. so we'd be piss and vinegar. you know like salt and pepper? what do you think about that?

its pretty good.

like do you like it though?

yeah.

like how come?

cause its very creative its good.

yeah but you dont find it insulting?

no its fine. its good. how is creativety insulting.

well it USUALLY is with you. you usually dont let anybody call you anything

ok well stop going with the usually bullshit and start going with what i say now. what i usually do doesnt matter this second.

thats like something i would say.

looking back

2009-06-15T13:56:00.001-07:00

definately had alot of fun, teh open mics, the days at the 88, the whole kendall drama, the preston bullshit, what else... the bullshit @ preston's studio w/ his dude who did his recordings and shit in a shady manner.

the sweet show at the rumba. the last show at the rumba w/ jimmy & nick. the sweet show @ the 88. the farewell @ the 88 w/ james and the rest. the semi-paid gig @ scarlet and grey.

good stuff.

well this band is more or less kaput

2009-06-13T10:54:00.000-07:00

anita and i have discussed a few times how we're really not interested in continuing this band. we've broken it up at least twice. we're in a relationship so it's inevitable we're going to be rubbbing shoulders whilst we write music.

album postponed indefinately

2009-04-26T04:14:00.000-07:00

well, i don't know if you've been following but i've been trying to get some sort of an album going here for the welsh assembly. well more or less, we called the guy the day of, and pushed it back, indefinately. there's no specific date for when we'll for sure go into the studio and record this thing, not sure if it'lle ven get done. so i guess you could say it's nearly in the scrap bucket, but i wouldn't count it completely dead and gone yet. just mostly so ;p.

meanwhile anita and i both continue to write individually, song lyrics and also music numbers. recently i also bought myself a new guitar which im quite enjoying. its kinda nice, little blue one with a dragon sticker on it. i was thinking of taking teh sticker off and putting something else on of my own liking.

continuing hiatus

2009-04-19T22:44:00.000-07:00

so anita and i have decided to take things off for awhile, she's amid a court battle ( short one ) and i am also amid my own things, once we resolve our respective occupations of time, as time allows, we do fully intend on resuming our work in the media-performance outlet, "The Welsh Assembly" as soon as possible.

In the meanwhile she and i have both made our efforts apparent elsewhere, both having been consumed lately by the writing of songs in lyric form, focusing on those, and also arranging for time at a local studio for a mere 20 dollars in exchange for one hours worth of recording time. this should result in the first studio recorded piece of work of "The Welsh Assembly".

new stuff

2009-03-15T00:19:00.000-07:00

new logo / cover

the welsh assembly's first show, march 6th 2008, scarlet and grey cafe columbus ohio

the welsh assembly's second show being advertised on the venue's website

another logo thing using wikipedia entry forms as the format hah

an acoustic show?

2009-03-09T20:49:00.000-07:00

so anita's hooked us up with an acoustic show on the 20th of april. thing is we don't really just use the acoustic hah. so we're thinking of ways to get around that. i could always use the loop pedal with the acoustic, and then beyond that, there's the vocal effects, as well as stuff like - well. all sorts of stuff.

march 6th first show flyer

2009-03-05T15:37:00.000-08:00

enjoy~

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2009-02-25T09:20:00.000-08:00

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2009-02-25T06:54:00.000-08:00

maybe we should be sending our records to matador records

yeah seriously

that'd be cool if we could get signed by matador records

i wonder in ten years if there'll be a show caled "ali"

you know uh... one thing i just thought of.... like... red hot chili peppers, that name doesnt mean anything. then you take a band like, the dandy warhols, and actually, even though you assume its just a random name, its actually fuckin though out. like dandy? you know what a dandy is?

no

someone who dresses up nice.

hmm

and then warhols because they're uh taking uh after that dude. but its like, every word has a meaning. but then youve bands like led zeppelin who - their name doesnt mean anything. and then ac dc. i mean, and then there's kiss. it's like these bands with like weird names, they give those words meaning through their music. if you pick a name that already has a well established meaning, then like... you'll never really known for your sound. you know what i mean?

uh uh.

well like, people will always say, oh there's that band that came up with that clever name. it's almost like needs to sound intentionally cool.

hmm

like welsh assembly, im not sure if that really sounds all that cool. you know like, maybe in america, but would people like it in europe? especially the welsh. i dunno. im just saying it doesnt sound as cool as kiss. or blink 182. you know what i mean?

yeah

like its doesnt have that... pazazz? it doesnt have that catchyness. and the catchyness comes from the word not having any meaning. do you see what i mean.

mhmm.

do you agree?

yeah. it doesnt stand out.

the welsh assembly sounds like a really polished antique.

yeah haha. good way to describe it.

and it would be cool maybe for like a sigur ros style band. but its still not fresh. we need like a fresh name. you know?

yeah

what about stay fresh iceland?

isnt that what you wanna name your record?

yeah i dunno, but its definately like the best name that we've got

i know. it's awesome.

yeah it's got this like, sparkle to it. you know?

yeah

but we'll see.

we skipped a 88 gig, amid progress and drawbacks

2009-02-21T05:51:00.000-08:00

anita was sick, i was tired. beyond that, we've been writing material, delving into the darker corners of our minds, and the like. i wrote up a song about viv, in a new way, real direct, i kinda wrote, i told him to use, something along those lines, real powerful, at least from my seat. so i've been slitenin to alot of hiphop, like the sophistication of it, and before that i had i guess you could say a beatles craze-phase, where i was sittin through the solo work of the sons and former members, we've got sean lennon that did some good shit, and then there's macca, always churnin out interestin shit, although i really dont think ill find a macca album that strikes me quite teh way chaos and creation does, i mean its like a page out of my own book, pasted on macca's sleeve, and it's sick, so yeah, and then course there's lennon, and the shitloads of work i hadn't heard before, he did shitlaods, i didn't even know he was out there reocrdin shit with his wife or i guess then girlfriend oyok back in 68, which was like two years before teh split. but yeah then going through teh beatles shit, i think im still secure im my opinion that the beatles white album is most likely their best. heh.

so we've got this whole pirate bay trial thing going on that's interesting. and what else... yeah. ill leave some for my other blogs heh. but we're writing music, lyrics, and the like. also might be relocating to dayton in a more semi permanent arrangement. more bout that later.

another 88 show

2009-02-13T02:29:00.000-08:00

sup, just got done with the 88 so yeah there was like body there which sucked. but we got a good response from some of our tracks so that was good. james and sky were there. i think they just kept the place open because we called so we owe them big for that. we drove from dayton which sucked. its so much more ocnvenient driving down the street. but i think its godo that we've kept up appearences at the 88. even though we're out in dayton. i think it makes us seem more professional and stuff but who knows right. they really loved the last one we did the dance is punk ish one it was all made up on the spot at least myend of it. anita had some vocals i gave her in the apartment a couple weeks ago. and she still remembered them thats speaking to her ability. and so she sang on top of my whole deal. was cool. i hd the loop pedal id lay down different layers of acoustic n electric. its her electric ever since i lost mine ive been using hers, who loses a guitar anyway hah. i do apparently. but yeah things went well. anita seemed to have a good time, we got good feedbakc from the crowd. id've wanted more people there if anything.

Some thoughts.

2009-02-10T21:43:00.000-08:00

So, these are the thing s I am think about right now. As far as the band goes, I want nothing to do with Prestn, Jimmy, or Kyle. Their personalities would clash with ours, and I just don't want to deal them, not even individually. Honestly, if it came down to needing another member, it'd have to be Jimmy because I know that he would be willing to do anything with us. Preston questions everything and always wants cigarettes, and Kyle is going to school, so he just couldn't commit to anything. But, the thing is that Jimmy likes to argue about shit and brings up stupid points to the table. That might be a bit irritating to carry along. We need to find people who will fit our personalities and enjoy what we do, and have the same kind of thought process as us, and contribute equally. I don't want to deal with having someone in the band who won't do things on their own. Although, it would be interesting to have.

I like the idea of having people play music while we just move around the stage and sing, but I also want to play something. I mean, I like just singing and wandering around the stage, but sometimes, I like to play an instrument and maybe sing. I like doing both. I mean, I want to learn how to play all these different instruments, so why not put it to use? I think it would be cool to like get up on stage without an instrument, then running off to play like a synth, or just a keyboard, or a guitar, or a bass, or a mandolin, or even drums, but not like an actual drummers drum set. More like a percussion instrument, like congas, or a djembe. Or even an organ, or some kind of brass instrument. I wanna be able to get on stage and just pick up any instrument and just play it, then switch to another. I've never seen it done, and I think it would be cool to do. Dancing around like a crazy lady, and playing anything I can touch, but also don't want to be the only one doing it. Just an idea.

I think it would be cool if we could use random pieces of trash things as instruments. Or even liek outdoor things, like wooden bozes, pieces of rock, glasses of water would be cool, like, I want ot make sounds with things that surround me. It'd be cool.

And, school. I want to go, but I don't know what for. I mean, I like the archeology idea, and I like the idea of doing astronomy, but I think I want to go for business, and just take a couple of like music classes, maybe study some Beatles, and I could take some dance class or something. I think it would be cool to be able to have a degree that basically requires me to travel for a job. I want to seee the world. And I want to make everything happen for me by playing music. I want to own stuff with the help of playing music and that just being my only source of income.

I was thinking about this earlier today. I have a goal. A serious one. That goal is to make a lot of phone calls, and send a bunch of e-mails, and to get a gig, a paid gig by the end of this month. That's my goal. And I'm gonna fucking make it fucking happen. It pisses me off that I'm so fucking lazy and I think it's about fucking time that I start kicking my own ass back into fucking shape. I need to get off my lazt ass, stop gaining weight and allowing everything weigh down on me, and just burst open. I need to wake the fuck up and do something productive, and I'll start by making those phone calls and demos. I want to take care of delivering the demos to these place because I know I can do it without Sandeeps help, I'm just being fucking lazy and making him do all the fucking work, which is just too ridiculous. It needs to fucking stop. He does everything to help, and what the fuck do I do? Sit and watch. Well, it's time to fucking get up and start doing shit my way, becasue I know that it'll work. It worked before, and I know I can do it. I just need to get the fuck up, put together a press kit, make some demos, and pass them out after making the phone calls. It's that simple.

I also want to be able to beat box on my own. I know I have to practice doing it, but I just get all clamped shut, and don't really want to express my practices. Which is just stupid. I also want to write a bunch more, like I want to write out stories, songs and raps. I think I could deffinitely find good use of it. And, I want to take a good listne to all of Sandeeps' old songs because I feel like they need something to be done with them. I feel like he needs to express those songs in front of some kind of crowd. I mean, he put the effort into making the songs in the first place, so I think that they should be shared, they should be heard. Maybe We I could even get us a paid gig and have it to be where he would only play his old songs. Ones that he's never performed. I think that'd be cool.

I'm done blogging on here for now. I'll think of better things later on when I'm not distracting myself and all...

anita's input.

2009-02-10T10:12:00.000-08:00

I wish I could write songs like the Beatles once did, and kind of still are. Like Paul McCartney, and Ringo Star.

2009-02-07T23:11:00.000-08:00

so im thinkin i wanna go pick up pics, and fuckin get a strap for the acoustic, but also prob switch over to the electric asap. dunno for sure but we'll fuckin see. fuckin tired of this fuckin acoustic shit. sittin on the fuckin chair n shit. fuckin bullshit hah. that is fuckin all ;p.

Yea.

2009-02-07T23:02:00.000-08:00

Sweet.

an idea

2009-01-31T23:43:00.001-08:00

i think we should start editing the set list,

we can record the set list we have right now, once we've got it down perfect then we can add and remove songs and once the set list has completely changed, we can then record another album, etc. i think each week either one of us should suggest a song to work on, and i think if both agree then the song should be one of two new songs worked on, as well as i think the set list which should be practiced daily anyway.

2009-01-22T17:20:00.001-08:00

annie before we do... write what down
shawn like whatever we say
annie you want your food?
shawn im good for now
annie hey you took this off
shawn yeah
annie ok whats your question
shawn so uh tell me what you thought were like well anything good james said
annie like uh beck and prince... well i mean... from what i got out of that, when he was talkin about price, was what he meant about pop music was popular music, like how grunge music was popular music in the 90s but its not considered pop music
shawn yeah. what else
anita well different cities he was talkin about are mainly i guess out of our price range, i dont think he understood that we're coming from a different standpoint like, telling me that i should get a job, and that i think that with the job thing that i quit the job just so we could do more music and we havent done more music, and its... it uh sucks. its rediculous. i quit my job before i went on that stupid trip and yet we still havent fuckin played any gigs.
shawn yeah and i think that that sucks
annie uh huh
shawn because we're like writing material we dont really need to rehearse it much
annie yeah
shawn its simple. and he was talkin bout how or music needs to be more structured
annie all i could thikn of when he said that was dude all the songs i write are structured all the songs we play are structured, the only time we improv are when we jam on stage
shawn the thing is man the only time we jam is when we're at the piano bar
anita so thats why james sees us as all we do is jam we shoulda come up with something tonight, not that we didnt have reason to before, but come up with shit that would blow his mind, like uh, maybe we should dress up or something, something that would make him go, woah whats wrong with these people tonight. i dont like the fact that he was like you guys need alot of work. you need to work on your craft. like what the fuck. i mean i can see what he meant when he said you need to work on the act, because thats when people see us. they look at how we look act they listen they pay attention if we care. james was right that you dont know who could be walking into the bar, someone who can book a gig. ive ran into one of those. you dont know what to expect
shawn i think he's full of bullshit.
anita why
shawn well i mean i see no evidence why i should take anything he says for anything beyond just hearsay because like i have no idea what he's done i've seen his music and it sucks its not my style i'd never play it or pay for it so i mean he worked in churches we're not tryin to work in churchs. we're tryin to get gets in fronta kids we're makin music for people in their 20s or even teens
anita not in their 60s
shawn and like its crazy because the dude was so adamant that we change our music because he thought that i wasnt being realistic saying that i thought we have some pop elements in our music. i think he's not being realistic if he's trying to cage himself in the styles that he's accustomed to but i mean bottom line is he's not someone who plays our music if we were jazz musicians he might be but at the end of teh day he's probably only about as useful as preston.
anita well he makes good points, one that i can remember, the performance act thing.
shawn i just dont think much of what he says really strikes me as something amazing. but i think that uh, there are some things that he did say that did make a bit of sense, like structure, basically the point being, song song song, or whatever, but you know that ive never liked james or sky, even from the beginning,
anita yeah why
shawn well theyre not my types of people
anita are they too jolly for you, cause they come off as really happy people. well maybe youre depressed and they wanna show everybody that they're happy
shawn maybe, but i mean, they just seem like they think they know lots of shit, but they dont, and like, you can talk with em, and for like all they say, there's like not much good in their words. if you went and did everything they suggested, i feel like you'd probably be worse off than better off
anita but some of the things that they do say are helpful, i mean, how expensive other cities can be, like i mean we were thinking of a couple of cities, and its nice to know that its costy, so even if we do go there we kinda know what to expect
shawn i think they're full of shit,
anita me or them
shawn not both, them, when it comes to fucking prices of cities? i used to live in chicago. ive traveled to like many of these places. you just have to know where to go to get the cheap shit. so its really not like you cant live, unless youre talking about new york city
anita what do you think about thewhole stay at a friends house for a week in new york just to see if we like it
shawn i mean we can do that but i mean ive been to new york many times i dont think id see anything new i kinda know what im getting into
anita so is it a good or bad situation if we go to new york
shawn its a bad one for cars because you cant drive to venues and shit because there's no parking you'd be parking like two or three blocks away
annie but i mean you have subways you could get a taxi
shawn dude you cant afford taxies every night
annie oh hehe true. i didnt think abotu that. taxis cost money. money = shit
shawn but uh its not just money its alotta money like 50 bucks but the subway is cheap like couple coins so we could take the subway but the subway doesnt go everywhere. i mean we could spend some time in new york and try to get around using the subway and stuff. but new york has a shitload of places to play in. and new york is supposed to be the center of america
annie what do you mean by that like the heart of america maybe
shawn no i mean like the center of america like the center of all the businesses
anita oh ok
shawn and also the place where most bands play
anita mmhmm, and become something that people listen to, well not everybody but you know what i mean
shawn there's alot of bands that comes from new york
anita mmhmm
shawn but uh i dont think uh, all good bands come from new york, they come from all over america
anita well yeah. some ofem come from different countries too
shawn you know what he was sayin though
annie who james
shawn yeah he was sayin that uh, find your... niche...
annie find your what
shawn find your niche, your group of people that like you
annie well i would say its not here in columbus. andi dont believehim when he says all open mics are just acoustic guitar and singing folk music.
shawn look at his own open mic
annie exactly
shawn but i did read somewhere that open mics were like a fad that started all of em used to be guitar places
annie so theyre just mainly guitar and uh vocal
shawn well i guess its like 20 30 years ago
annie thats awhile though things've changed music's changed
shawn yeah and like uh, musics bigger than its ever been
annie yeah so its even harder for people to actually go somewhere in music
shawn i would say its even easier
annie how is it easier
shawn there's more venues everywhere, there's more people who listen to music
annie mmhmm ok, but there's also musicians
shawn yeah but the whole system can handle more musicians than back in the day. i think part of the problem is, the group of shit that we're trying to get involved in
annie uh huh
shawn is like, basically something that james has never been involved with
annie so thats probably why he's like hold off one verything you need to do what i think is right see if you like each other wheres the vibe
shawn i mean he's not off base we do need ot make sure the bands working
annie well yeah
shawn but i think it is working and i dont think we need more reassurance
annie he thinks it isnt thats why he was telling us that basically we needa get our shit together and basically see if we even like playing music together.
shawn well remember we'vebeen jamming alot when we play there. remember we told ourselves we did a bad job last time. we're giving them the wrong impression. and thats comin from jammin with people. we probably spent more time last week jammin that we did playin our songs
annie and we shouldnt play music for long periods of time, especially open mics, because i think last time we stayed for six hours
shawn yeah we shouldnt be there for too long. and if we're there we should just be listening. we shouldn't keep going up
annie we'll go up listen to everybody else and we're out
shawn but it's ok i mean we did pretty shitty the last couple times but if we do a good job today then we can change some peoples opinions

2009-01-19T10:53:00.001-08:00

bring a demo to:
Barcelona Restaurant and Bar
263 E Whittier St
Columbus, OH 43206-2323
Phone: (614) 443-3699
at 2:30 call:
Bexley Monk
2232 E Main St
Bexley, OH 43209
Phone: (614) 239-6665

it's kinda limiting to look through bands as where they're from. the sounds get kinda thin, like not enough variety

bring a demo and bio to (dine@thetopsteakhouse) :
The Top Steakhouse
2891 E Main St
Columbus, OH 43209-2614
Phone: (614) 231-8238

press kit + demo to:
Grandview Cafe
1455 W 3RD Ave
Columbus, OH 43212-2960
Phone: (614) 486-2233
demo to:
Patrick J's
2711 N High St
Columbus, OH 43202-1123
Phone: (614) 784-0660

2009-01-17T10:53:00.000-08:00

anita's songs

how about the song that we uh, you wrote... and that i split up. "the iceland one?"
yeah. "why do you like that one?" cause its interesting. its something we havent
tried yet. "yeah its got some interesting lyrics. and i think that the changes you
wrote could be interesting. i mean it could be a potentially great song." yeah.
"like a really good one. like probably one of our best. its probably the best song
we've ever done. cause you wrote out so many different changes" i just felt like they
neede dto be there. "and then you gave me all these oppertunities to be creative"
but you can do that on your own too "not like this." different? "yeah. like, i like
how your changes are yours. you like put your stamp on the song" mm hmm, "and i think
thats pertty badass because we havent really done that before. like i think we just
figured out a way for you to get your stamp on a song," cool. "cause before you
were just singing my lyrics" yeah "and this way youre actually controlling the
structure of the song. and its in a way that i can totally work with." its fun
for me to do too. except for when youre like, im gonna record this entire working
process, and im gonna fuck with ya the entire time. and then when you run off to the
bathroom im gonna write a song about you pooping. other than that its great. "you've
gotta admit though, that the song when you were in the bathroom," mmhmm "i like this
song alot too ( semisonic made to last )" i saw that going nowhere "what?" that song!
"which song? the song... uh.. the bathroom song." yeah "i thought it was good. i
liked the changes" change the lyrics "yeah thats easy to do" but keep the ... the
music "it was pretty badass, i liked singing the notes i was playing," yeah "and i
don't think that i've done that with you before," really? yeah you have. kindof.
just not in a song. "but i think that was the first time that we did it in a song."
yeah, and recorded it, as it happened. "and i think there's power in that" oh yeah
definately, "cause when you record something when youre making it up, youve got all
that creative energy in it" yeah "and its like, you feel excited, because thats your
mind at work right at that second. thats why i like to record me all the time." well
its easier than writing, like on a piece of paper, cause i mean, you can talk faster
than you type. you especially. "yeah i mean this is how ive been uh doing it for the
past uh couple years so its kinda like something ive taken a fair distance from just
like the idea of it." i love howyoure reading, er youre takling and typing at the
same tmie. what gave you the idea of typing. like did you know thats what you wanted
the laptop for, or did you do something else." well ive been experimenting with this."
for how long "just since youve seen me do it. wait." what. "do you mean song lyrics?"
what? "that im typing" what are you talking about. no i mean that hehe, are you
looking back? "what do you mean?" im not taling about your lyrics, im takling
about when you're typing and youre saying what youre going to type to me. "yeah i
mean its like a writing excersize. if you can do it then its helpful and if you can"
see youre doing it now, cause youre like its helpful and then you type that and then
something else and it makes you takl and type slower, "yeah but its like all going to
something specific, so its kinda like, each word i write is kinda creating something
on this page. which is kinda like painting with a brush rather than just speaking
words that'd immediately get forgotten. see what i mean?" hehe, yeah. it makes you
talk and type slower. hehe. thats why its funny. i was trying to continue the conversation
that we had before. and i was like thats funny. di ont even remember the conversation
we were having before, it was like... some music thing. "well ive gotten it written
down. i could tell you." well let me see, or hear. "but do you really wanna know?"
no. "see" cause im pretty sure it'd start up a very boring conversation "you needa
start getting interested in your profession" hey! did you not look at my face. did
you not see my sarcasm? apparently not. "nope. heh" yeah see. took awhile to
respond. "i had alot of words to write" yeah i know hehe. "but the cool thing is we
can go back and we can uh get song lyrics from this shit," i mean from what we're
typing right now, "yeah from what im typing right now" ok "because these are just
random things we're saying, and if we're like ever out of ideas then this is like a
great source of just shit to wriet. i could write all day just typing the things
that you and i say to each other and there's so many like brilliant little bits that
could easily be turned into a sweet song lyric. and i could probably turn this whole
thing into a song. you could to. all you have to do is go through, underline shit
you like, take all the shit you underlined, write it on a seperate paper, then
youve got a bunch of cool lines, and you can see if those lines kinda inspire you
to write something," what're you listening to? "this's one of my oldest cd's, um,
semisonic, the one with closing time" hmm. i really like it. "yeah i do too, this is
um, one i used to listen to in my bedroom when i was going to sleep," hmm "when i was
uh, a kid, real young, id be in my bedroom, lights out, on my way to sleep, and this's
one of the cd's i'd use to help me fall asleep. but i didn't use it just to fall
asleep. i was just getting into music. and this was like one of the first cd's i
listened to. like i'd played... like i'd played um... music before, like, choir,
recorder lessons, violin lessons, piano lessons, harmonium lessons, i'd learned hymns
and uh, sikh religious stuff, and uh, i'd learned how to dance by then, the uh,
indian dance, so i'd done alot of music shit at that point, but i had never really
gotten into music," i thought youd been doing music for awhile, for like, since
middle school, "yeah, when i was listening to this i was like... in fourth grade or
something, and like, this was just when i moved from chicago to ohio, i went
to a high school, or a,... it would have been an elementry and uh, it was fourth grade
that was the year i was assigned trombone, cause they" wow forth grade really? "yeah
like there was this thing after school put on by the band that basically was like a
band audition and they handed you an instrument and saw if you could make a sound on
it, so the one i could make a sound on was the clarinet, but this one girl that i
liked at the time, and she's basically, so you don't get jealous," hehe so i dont
get jealous, "she got really fat hehe" what the fuck happened to my ankle, so youre
saying that she's not even attractive anymore, how rude, mean i mean, not rude.
"thats not rude to say" thats what i said, not read, mean. "i know but i was on
your original thing, and its not mean either, when we're speaking like, we don't
have to be nice," ok "when it's between you and me, im just telling you my actual
opinion, its not mean to think that, its only mean, according to some people, if you
say it, but honestly, if ive got a thought in my head, its gonna come out, because
thats what you needa fuckin do, and youll live in a much more honest existence,
even if some of the shit you say is kinda rude, cause, thats life," hehe "i mean
sometimes shit is funny" hehehe "and sometimes you've gotta like, say youre shit" you
should see your face "anita," huh? "do you think im... uh mean?" no! why would i
think that, "cause you said. you said i was mean." i said that was mean. i mean what
you said, not you, you are not mean. youre nice. "yeah but i dont even think that
that was mean." well i did. "yeah but youre wrong hehe" so! "because i mean, that
kindof mentality basically is just a fucking brace on your brain. if youre fucking
walking around telling people that they're mean, you know what that basiclaly is a
tool for?" what "censorship. people needa fucking say whatever the fuck they wanna
say. and im not gonna feel comfortable saying whatever i wanna say if people keep
telling me im mean or whatever. the point is, youre calling it mean, because youre
saying that if she ever heard it then she'd be offended," yeah "but honestly she isnt
hearing it, and so, because i said it to you, you imagined her, in your head, and
so" yeah "basically because you imagined this girl you didnt know gettin offended,
you decided to remind me, that according to your imagination, your imagined girl was
crying, and that i should feel bad about your imagined girl. i mean your entire point
is you should feel bad. why should i feel bad? because i made your imagined girl cry.
but if she was actually here, you dont fucking know if she'd cry or she'd laugh. she
might be one of those people who can take a joke," maybe "do you see what im tryin
to get across to you? cause thats a bullshit thing to tell someone that they're being
mean, you said yourself, people didnt respect you, didnt give you the oppertunity
to say what you thought, you said your folks wouldnt listen to you, your family
wouldnt listen to you." yeah "well i mean, this is one of the ways they get to you
stop bothering even trying. do you see how that fucking does that. we dont need either
of us constantly reminding the other person that they're mean. i should probably
stop telling you that you laugh at other peoples misfortunes. because thats a tool
given to us by someone else. designed only to make you feel upset. and my goal is
not to make you feel upset. do you understand?" mm hmm. "i mean firstly, do you even
agree, that like, saying you're mean, to someone, is desgined to inflict pain into
that person, and its asking, its basically fucking asking them to shut the fuck up,"
but i.... hehe, no... "but thats what it is about. cause if youre like, dude, that
was mean, if you really thought it was mean, then it would probably give you a bad
taste in your mouth, and you'd be like, fuck man that was mean, can't believe you did
that, see what i mean? and like, if you had that point of view, you'd be like, dude
if you keep doing that, i wouldn't even like you anymore. we shouldn't be trying to
fucking rate each other. i dont sort my life out by other peoples fucking scales.
but neither do you. see what i mean?" yeah. "like what if people called you disgustin
for being a lesbian. like your mom. and your sisters and brothers. and what if some
of your girlsfriends broke up with you and told you you were disgusting for being
a lesbian." hah that would usck for one, that would be rediculous. "it would break
your heart wouldnt it" yeah. "and thats how i see this shit." sorry! "when you're
like, dude you're mean." hehe "see what i mean" i dont want you to feel that way.
"but do you see what i mean." like right now you're really cute. its so funny cause
youre cheeks go back down, then back up, then somewhere in the middle, then back donw
and then pops back up. its so cute! hehehe. youre not mean. "well you said i was mean."
well i take it back, youre not mean. im sorry. "and you said, that uh, i was being
mean to you to." when did i say you were being mean to me. hehehe. "when i high was
high yesterday, you said i was mean." well you were being uh, "what? saying intelligent
shit" you were being a smartass "that exposed your idiocy" maybe "and i dont say
that meaning that youre an idiot, or that youve even done any idiotic things, its
just like a joke basically," well yeah, "like, the way it works, ive gotta do my best
to try and make you believe that youre at idiot," that... is that a goal, why is that
a goal if that is, and thats rediculous, "because the point is," no, "is that its like
" no "its like a" nope. "im gonna say it." hehehe nope. youre so cute. " the point
is" no "that when i say that" no "that its basically designed to make you feel like
an idiot." nope! "but not really think it, its just like, youre also supposed to like
try as hard as you can to avoid being called an idiot," so youre takling about me,
"yeah exactly, you try as hard as you can to avoid being put in a position where
youre like unavoidably," thats stupid. im rediculous, why do you listen to me, "
youre not rediculous, no but um, its like, youve gotta put em in a position where they
have to like avoid being called an idiot but youre gonna try as hard as you can to
beat them and make them feel like an idiot for like a split second and the second
they feel like an idiot you win and you give em a hug heh," ok. "its like," so right
now youve gotta give me a hug, "you feel like an idiot?" no. "then why do i needa
give you a hug." shit. "cause you want one?" you suck. yeah i want one, hugs are fun.
"i thought i suck." no, you want a ring? from grape juice. its like a grape ring.
would you like a grape ring? "grape ring thats a good thing to put into a song, we
wouldnt have come up with that if we were trying to write. you see what im sayin?
cause like, this process creates stuff we couldnt get if we were trying to write.
see what im sayin? shit that, well, if you had a computer right now, you'd like this
idea a bit more," probably ( burp ) "cause, youre like, I DONT GIVE A SHIT, heh"
no, no. "yeah." no! "yep!" well maybe im like, half and half or whatever heh, "see!"
well i do care! deep inside me! "the problem is man, that the shit that i think is
most important, you think is fuckin boring, and the problem is, that there's no fuckin
way youre gonna be able to work with me, if you cant fucking look at what i do and see
the use in it. im not just trying to fucking waste my own time here. this has a
fuckin use. and you should know me well enough by now to know that ive been doing this
for a long time, and i wouldnt be doing it ifi didnt think it'd be useful. like ive
been doing this shit for the past five years. and its not that long of a period of
time, but, in that time, ive founds ome shit that works. if you can admit that you
like a single song that ive done then you can admit that its had some effectiveness.
this is just like one of the ways you give like an extra dimension to the shit that
you do. cause if you just write words and music, then thats all it is. but if you
are like drawing from all sorts of shit, ok, take this, you know all those times i
write stuff and your eilke i remember that happeneing," yeah "what if i never did
that. what if i never wrote about shit that happened to us, cause i was like, oh it
would never be interesting," that would suck "but you see, you like that," yeah
"and if every time i were to play that, and you'd just fucking laugh, then maybe i
wouldn't put it in as many songs as i do," so i laugh at all of them? "no but you were
fuckin laughin just now, you were basically telling me i was a rediculous fuck for
doing what im doing, and the point is, that im hoping youre gonna be doing the exact
same shit that im doing, and so youre kinda rediculing the shit that im gonna ask
you to do, so of course that puts me in a weird position doesnt it, but im sure it'll
put you in a weird position too, because you'll be sittin there saying didnt i just
say i hated that shit, and i'll be like, yep, and that's how i write songs, and you'll
be like, mother fucker," heh "and, then you'll do it, and we'll write songs." tss
"but the point is, you've gotta have a fuckin open mind, you do shit your way sure,
and i'd love to see what you do, but you've gotta fuckin leave people's creative
processes alone. i do what i do because i like to do it. if i have to start defending
myself on my creative process then thats like kinda rediculous. i mean what do you
think? hmm? do you think im outa line to say respect my creative process? aka back
the fuck off?" yeah. "is that outa line?" no, not at all. "do you think im being mean
?" no. "or rude?" no. "then what do you think." youre just talking. "i know but i mean"
youre just trying to like... "what?" basically youre just guarding yourself, "im
not sure i like that." explaining yourself? "guarding myself, sounds shitty. you
think im guarding myself? huh?" no! "you just said it. i wrote it down." uhhh! no.
uh uh. "well then why'd you say it. "cause i cant think of another word. "i dont think
that im guarding myself. i think im explaining to you how my mind works," yeah that
makes more sense, "and i think ive been around the block enough to know that the only
thing that works for me, is the shit that i do now, and whatever the fuck i come up
with, but other peoples shit doesnt work for me, and my shit wont work for other people
and that brings up an interestnig point, my shit might not work for you, and maybe
you kinda needa bring your shit it, but the point is, if you wanna bring your shit in,
the way to do it is not to heckel the shit that i do, rathe takl about the positves
that you do, because any negative you find in what i do, i will never see that, cause
obviously its working for me, so then all i get from that, is that you dont like
something that i do, and then i just feel bad in a larger sense, you know, like,
someone you care about, whose opinion you value, tells you that something you think is
important, is actually shitty, and like, i know youre wrong, but, if i like, think
of you as my girlfriend, rather than my enemy, then that makes me feel sad, that you
dont like, you know, whats basically a part of me, you laugh at it, like its some
fucking joke or something, like youre giving me some kinda insult or something, and
what did i do to deserve that," nothing, "all i fucking did was showed you what i
fucking do, maybe i am sensitive, because this shit, when i show you how i write songs
thats stuff that uh, i keep clutched to my chest, nobody learns about how i do my shit,
but im telling you how i do my shit, so im not used to any sorta criticism, so like,
right now, i cant handle criticism, when it comes to how i write songs, cause im
just not used to it, so like, it's just weird, but i'll get used to it over time,"
so noone elses's done what i do, "huh?" noone else is used to... how i talk. "to how
you talk" to you. "what do you mean?" like.. whenever you say something that i find
rude or mean i tell you, and maybe noone else has told me. "no, its not that, youre
rude and mean comments im never gonna accept, because thats basically against what
im about. entirely." i know, i know, "im not talkin about what youre sayin, but that
youre saying it, i dont tell people theyre rude or mean, maybe i do, but i just
kinda feel like its wrong to say, like youre wrong, and that youre kinda doing
something kinda disugsting. i mean who the fuck are you say if im good or bad. right?
who... who fucking knows. and not only are one random person, but youre also trying
to tell me your negative opinion, which isnt gonna help me ever, its just gonna
slow me down, so at the end of the day you didnt give me a gift you gave me an attack
and its like, i dont really want to be fuckin attacked, what i want is someone whose
gonna support me in what im doing, not constantly question everything i do. everyone
else in the world is gonna do that, you cant avoid that, not if youre gonna put
yourself out there, but in here, i try to keep a different kind of a mood. more
constructive, less negative, less bullshit, straightforward, hardworking, positive,
and upbeat, and hardcore, but not bullshit. and i see that as bullshit. there's
nothing positive about it. do you see what im saying. do you think that im just
kinda not used to it." i guess "or do you think im just... that this is just how i
am." i think more of its... i know how you are. "do you think im being unreasonable"
yeah. "why the fuck do you think im being unreasonable." unreasonable or reasonable
"first one" i thought you said reasonable. i think youre being reasonable. "see, like
i said, all my shit, has worked for me," yeah, "like, when i was at my parents, tryin
to sort them out" mmhmm, "and then with my sister, and then with myself, i wrote 2,000
in one year, and that year, i only spent four months writing songs, i did 500 songs
a month," wow "for four months straight, because i decided i wanted to learn how
to write songs. that kinda jump started everything. before then i wrote randomly
here and there, like i wrote a couple songs when i was in high school. and like,
just for the fun of it you know? like youre sitting there youre bored you just write
a song." hmm. "and like, they were good songs, some of em, alot of em werent, like
before i was hardcore about it, but wheni went to college, in my dorm room, i was
around all these hardcore musicians, people who took it seriously, so they said, but
you know, people like to takl shit, so they mighta been taklin out their asses, but
basically i saw people, who basically spent less hours a day playing music than me,
but were doing ebtter perfances on the stage, because they were practicing for the
stage, and you remember that japanese guy?" yeah "how he was kinda playing for himself
" yeah "well thats what i spent my time doing at first. and then, when i was a sophomore
i basically, met vivek. and he got me into the whole... like... record shit on a computer
makes lots of tracks, complex shit, write three four parts, have like two guitar,
have vocals, have bass, eventually have drums, have like distortion, have like reverb
on the voice, have keyboard, all of this, was just additions to what i was doin
the year before, which was basically me and a shitty electric guitar, freshman year,
just sitting there playing like random notes and singing like stuff that like came
to my head, i hadnt yet figured out how to like fucking, um, come up with songs
on the fly, i hadnt learned that yet, i didnt even know that was possible, i just did
what i, you know, what anyone does when they first start, you sit there you play
random notes, and you like, have these eureka moments, where youre like, wow thats
awesome, and then you play it a million times, and the words just seem to come from
somewhere, and you like, play it a million more times, and then you bring like the
one friend, and youre like, hey ive got a song, come listen, and so they listen, and
they're not that into music, and they're like, yep. and you're like, so how was it!?
and they're like, oh it was good man it was good. give me some fucking good advice
you fucking motherfucker, but theyre out the door, so youre like oh motherfucker,
and then you go back to writing another song. see that was a step up over what was
happening in high school, cause id write songs and i wouldnt even show em to people.
but like, freshman year, thats when i started showin my songs to people, and thats
when i realized people actually liked my music. cause before then id never actually
had a moment where iw as like you know people actually like my music. so that was
pretty good, because i think from that point on, i wasnt jsut writing songs to you
know to make me happy, i was writing em cause ir eally wanted other people to like
the music. so that kindof was a change. so then like i said sophomore year, vivek,
i got cakewalk, got a computer, got a soundcard, got the loop pedal too, way back in
the day, five years ago now, thats a long time, ive had that loop pedal for five
years, so you can see why im interested in moving past it," yeah "its too self
satisfying of a tool because you... you kindof remove the need for like audience
participation, youre kinda like, self supplied, youve got everything you need, whichs
good, but its also bad, because you just become too self reliant, and you even become
like, like you dont even give a shit about the audience, cause it kinda makes you
a bit antisocial to work like that, see what im saying, cause like, you can write a
song, and you can play all the instruments, so like, you dont need anybody, and you
just, dont like how anybody else plays anymore, because you playing that bass sounds
exactly the way you want it, you know what imean, but i didnt want to like miss out
on the whole comradery stuff and side of the band that you cna have, i had that with
my first band in sophomore year, vivek gave me the cakewalk shit right, and i guess
like, something happened, i guess i kept seeing people in bands, i think i was like
18 at that time, yeah i would've been, so i was like living in an apartment, on the
twelfth floor of a building, best view in columbus, like luxurious as shit, the
apartment sucked, but the view was luxurious, and of course, the infamous, "ive got a
view" was written while i was sitting maybe this close, to the window, looking out
the window, with the view. and i was kinda like, yeah, so ive got a view, but its
like, ugly as shit, its industrial. but anyway. yeah, so i guess my point was, that
then junior year i moved into this shitty little apartment, it was way shittier than
my apartment ebfore, it sucked cause you know youre goin from best view in columbus
to like this shitty little fucking place like, footsteps on the ceiling constantly,
conversations outside coming through the walls, constant like partying and loud music
but, there were like massive amounts of silence, so im sitting here in this apartment,
and i think, ohio state had kicked me out, and i had only gone to ohio state, cause
a friend of mine applied there, kirby applied there, and i just applied wherever the
fuck he applied, cause i didnt give a shit, i could've applied to... i could've gone
to chicago or something, or even england, i could've gone to england in 2003, but i
was a dumbass, i was just like, didnt give a shit at that time, about school or
college, and i guess i never really thought id have to work or anything, like
actually give a shit abou tthe jobn i had, i could've just gotten a job at a record
store and just done that my entire life, or like, if i worked at a music shop, yeah
back then that wuold've been like my dream job, because like discounts on music and
shit, and like, maybe i could give lessons too, i could just see myself sitting at
the counter, just jamming all day, with all of the pedals and shit, and i'd probably
know how everything worked, i'd probably learn how to make myself a sweet ass studio,
like the dude we visited, who built it in his fucking garage," yeah that was cool
with the sound proof room and how he had it setup where you could talk to them in
the sound proof room " and i mean id probably own every pedal in the shop, heh, and
like have one of those pedal boards, but anyway... that didnt happen, because
something happened to me, i was there, i was like, i had cut my hair, so i was free
in my mind from my family, you know how youre like basically youre familys bitch
right now," yeah i suppose, no, yeah "well i used to be like that too, but like when
i cut my hair, i cut ties with my family, and so for like many years, we didnt really
speak, and you can see like how my sister is with my parents," yeah, always arguing
complaining about something, "well that used to be exactly how i used to be. but
it all changed because i was blogging at that time, basically one of the things that
happened to me freshmen in college was getting introduced to a website called xanga
and so all my friends that we made freshman year we all blogged and commented and
shit and yeah so that got me into blogging and writing and i was already into writing
like back in highscool i wrote this, well... it was an assignment, we had to write
twelve poems, and like one of my poems was an epic called the abacus baikal and it
was like you know um i was wriing the story about degawnys's lost son, well it wasnt
like as good, my .. my first poem, but it wasnt like terrible it had potential and
um, so the thing of it was that the poem, well i really liked that poem, it was about
like this mystical book, with like magical powers called the abacus baikal and i was
writing it like as if it was a legend, told by some king or something, you know like
the hobbit style basically, i was a big nerd back then, because unfortunately those
were the people i ran with because i was all introverted," whats wrong with being
nerdy "i never really got a taste for it, it wasnt my true personality, it was just
the only one i felt comfortable expressing myself, because, they were more accepting
people, but it wasnt like, how i thought, and i didnt even like them, like i thought
they were disgusting some of em," kinda like the kids who do roleplaying in school,
there's always a gaming club, "yeah kinda, like, im sure they all did that shit
back in high school," oh yeah i was in teh gaming club and we'd just go down in the
computer club and do fighting games, like from 230 to 500 and just fucking video games
and then there's always the video game.. there's a gaming class... note ven a gaming
club during school, it was during lunch.. so we'd go and do a roleplaying game
with a group of kids and i just remember looking at them and thinking why do they do
this you know there's so much out there you could do that you can appreciate besides
gaming, "for me it was more like, how they didnt wash themselves, the pimples, youve
got acne but yours has nothing to do with what they had, the way they were like whiney
like at the same time, i was on the soccer team, four years straight, the high school
team, and i was on the basketball team one year, so like, and i appreciated that whole
jock kinda deal although i wouldnt really call myself a jock but i do love competician
im competative, i dunno if you see that or not, could you see me like playing a sport
with someone," yeah "like, running..." soccer. or maybe even cricket. "nah." nah?
why not. "i mean i played it like with friends but i never really fell in love with it
like soccer, i mean i could talk about soccer all day, back when i was into it, like
we'd play a game, and all i could do for the rest of the day was talk about all the
shit that happened in the game, because it was alotta fuckin fun. the thing is." its
a fun sport, "it wasnt just the sport, it was like, being on a team, everyone working
together," yeah, helping each other out," i think that really had an impact on me
like in high school because if it wasnt for like that, and i dont think that i owe my
highschool anything, it was all the british schools that had us play soccer, it was
like an all boys school, at least it had been until a couple years ago, and you didnt
have a choice you played soccer," heh kinda like when you rein middle school you have
no choice but to play the recorder," yeah but i was playing recorder in probably first
grade," really? "yeah like in england first grade they taught us how to use the computer,
how to play violin, piano, recorder, singing in a choir, they taught us how to use
maps in the wilderness with a compass how to find north and stuff and they taught us
how to do oregami like making all sorts of," thats paper, "yeah" yeah, thats alot
of stuff to be doing in first grade, "and we had art class of course stamp collecting
these were clubs coin collecting and uh, bird watching, orienteering is what it was
called when you take a compass and a map and go into the hills and use the map to see
different mountanis and stuff," yeah "you'd put red in the shed, you ever heard that?"
no "really?" nope "i was in boy scouts in ohio, like... well what happened was i guess
so i guess i came here in like either halfway thruogh third grade or fourth grade and
so i uh made friends with this kid called uh jacob martni all american fat dude from
like a southern state and like roots deep into america the dude was all american and
like so uh all into nasa like even in fourth grade like... super young and all these
magazines about going in nasa and shit and he knew all these facts about the solar
system and shit and he was into boy scouts and so i guess he invited me to come down
sometime and so i went and i joined i guess," isnt this the guy that works for nasa
today," no because thats a guy that i knew in MVS in the 8th grade plus and i also think
i only met that dude in like 10th or 11th grade, this guy im talkin bout i met in like
4th grade, in a different school, in public school, remember the um, outdoor mall,
in dayton, with von maur, and the movie theatre where we didnt watch anything," oh
yeah yeah, "well remember those apartments," uh huh "those were where we lived when
we uh got a place that wasnt a hotel room. "you mean when you came from uh, england
to america, to chicago, "yeah like when we came from chicago or i guess england and
chicago before that to ohio. but we drove so we probably stopped for a bit in chicago
and then uh came here, i think my aunt gave us her old car, or maybe my uncle, and
uh, i can show you the picture, wanna see?" yeah "cmere... ( looks at pictures )
anyway, so yeah basically the whole uh thing was like we drove and like, moved in
and like, were there til we bought the house that you saw," the one in dayton? "yeah
and we were in a place called econo lodge which is a hotel for like two weeks before
we got the apartment, i can still remember when we like first came where my sister and
i were like just get an apartment we wanted one right now we didnt care what it was
cause the hotel was horrible," mm hmm " and it was like just we were tired of it we
were going to school right? and we were like in the elementary schools driving or rather
taking the bus from our fucking hotel heh. like the school bus would come to the hotel
parking lot and we'd take it to school. the school was called, main elementry, and we
were there for like two weeks. and i remeber all the kids kinda trying to ... well
they gave us like a guide two kids a guy and a girl they showed us around the school
and stuff, and that was cool, and then um, when we moved to stonebridge apartments,
then like, we fucking changed school districts, so you remember the farms and the
school where the farm was on both sides of the road," yeah, "well that school was the
school i transferred to from main elemtry to fairbrook elementry and im pretty sure
that either i... went to fourth grade there or fifth grade im not sure but im trying
to figure it all out because like i wanna be familiar with all the shit ive done
cause there's alot of it and uh, you never know when you'll need to use any of that
information, like in a song or, in a story or, like something you wanna take a
picture of, or like, yeah basically those, or if i wanna be accurate about my life
story when i make the movie. but yeah. so anyway, after writing 2000 songs, i started
being so hardcore about music, junior year," after? "the year they kicked me out. well
like, doing the 2000 songs was like an assignment, but like i didnt really feel like
id changed until after i did em, because then i felt like id achieved something, i
was like, ok, i set out to do 2000 songs and i did it, so i felt like i had proved
something to myself, i knew i had done something that alot of people could never do."
i feel like i should do the same thing, maybe it'll help me. at least as far as song
writing goes, maybe ill feel alot more comfortable, and then maybe i'll do it alot
more. i should do that. "but i should tell you that, thats all i was doing, like, it
takes alot of fucking time to do that," yeah, whats wrong with trying to do that, if
its something to do, i know i want to, "well the problem is, we wont have time for
the band, if youre gonna do something like that" sure we will "no i dont think you
understand, youre literally not gonna have time for anything," but what if i, what if
i just do 1000. i could do half that. "it really doesnt matter. i mean i dont think
i could ever be completely against the idea because i did it myself and its like a
major source of confidence even today its like bragging rights like if you win the
heavyweight championship of the world then like, thats with you," yeah "and i know
you need some boost to your confidence and i know we were talking about using our
time better i guess i was like since youre not working and that chick in ... whats
his face... the dude you hate..." oh kendall "yeah the chick in kendalls band is
outdoing you and she works and you dont and ist cause she's practicing more and you
dont practice ever so if you practiced you could literally put more hours into it
than her and you'd easily like outdo her because youre talented and we've got some
good songwriting between the two of us and the songs they do are so fucking boring
its like an easy fucking ruck to overcome like its a good first hurdle like a good
first challenge for us as a band is to go to the open mic and outdo kendall's band
completely and once we do that we know we can move on to bigger and better things."
oh yeah. "but not before. we needa do this. we need to either play the style songs
they better than they do, or we needa just get the crowd in more to our stuff than
theirs. then we know we've achieved our first goal." how bout we try to do both

well. so you wanna do the whole write 2 thounand songs thing" yeah. "why" because i
think it'll help me, i think if i di it'll be able to write as many songs as you if
not more. "yeah i guess you can see like how i am and if i say that alot of what i do
comes from that then you might be like well if i do that then i'll be like him right?"
pretty much, "well i mean it was my goal it may not do the same for you, like, maybe
it will, maybe it will," i dunno cause i used to write stories and the more i wrote
the better i got really, so i figured if i uh wrote alot of songs... that might help
me the same way i did when i did stories, and poems i used to write poems too. "yeah
like they say, practice makes perfect. its a simple thing," mm hmm "its not a fucking
secret of the universe, we fucking all know that if you practice," makes you perfect
"you get fucking good." yeah "and like" and everybody wants to improve somewhere.
"yeah and see im practicing writing while i speak and writing what you say which is
like" hehe "an interviewing technique. like if i was gonna do a proper journalistic
interview i'd be doing this shit. so yeah." kinda like um, in the courtrooms that
cant be recorded or anything, or how they used to be back in the day they used to
sit there and sketch out the pictures, and then they would have someone write down
and type what was being said by each person, "they still do all of that" well some of
them are recorded like video taped, "ok, but ive only seen them do it the old fashioned
way so you said although id ont even think its old fashioned but i dont think of that
when i do this i think of rolling stones interviews giving an interview with like
your favorite musician like that chick you thought was hot the 40s chick who wrote
the milf song hah what if you got the chance to interview her," oh hehe, yeah "cause
like thats what im practing for right now." yeah. "its a skill and uh, you'll always
need it," so i think i should write alot of songs "yeah i mean thats kinda what we're
already trying to do just you arent really writing lyrics i mean i dont think you
should go off and write by yourself i think we should both learn how to write together
and maybe we should have a goal of writing 2,000 songs together" i like that "because
when i wrote mine, my 2,000, i wasnt in a band, so like, it was all me and i didnt
need to work with other people but we're in a band and if you go off and write 2,000
by yourself and then bring 'em over firstly i'll be like what the fuck hah, cause it'll
be so many and secondly it'll be like hard as shit to key into every vibe youre going
for plus they'd be like, "anita songs" which i dont like want them to be songs we
both do together. equally." that should be our goal, "its already my goal, i already
told you that too hah, you werent listening ;p" i guess "yep. you werenting listening.
heh. but uh yeah, i mean writing lots together will make us better at doing it
together, ic an already write shitlaods on my own but im not as good as writing with
people so we both need the practice not just you. so it'll," well i still feel like
i do too, like just me, cause i mean i wouldnt mind writing songs, maybe not as many
without you, i wanna write alot more with you, it just makes things more interesting,
and i like writing with you, "i mean my opinion is i dont want either of us to write a
single song without the other person there. because otherwise its like we're not really
in this songwriting partnership. i want a proper songwriting partnership where its
done properly where we write everything together and then evetually we stop having
egos about the music and we start getting used to talking about how the songs are by
US and not my song from 05 or your song from myspace we have OUR shit we did TOGETHER
and that THAT means something, way more than anything that we can pull out our ass
when we're like fucking in a corner on a plane going to fucking tennessippy heh," heh
tennesippy, TEYNAHSIPPEH! "but yeah i mean i think the whole thing is that ive already
been in like three bands before this one, in the first one we basically did the whole
my song your song thing which sucked because i would bring them like 10 demos every
time and they would just be like, well, like this one, hate this one etc, when i liked
them all hah, so i was like, what the fuck dude, i didnt tell you to throw away that
shit, so they were like fucking with my songs, making em shitty, making changes i
didnt say they could do, so basically the point is, is you wanna like, come up with
the concept of the song, in the presence of your bandmates, with your bandmates, and
thats how you avoid the ego shit, where youre like, you cant change that, etc, we need
to have the situation where you can change shit in a song, and i wont feel offended,
and the way we do that is write the song together in the first place. thats the point
of a band. anyway. see?" yeah. "we're not really in a band if we're not writing songs
together, and if there's like fucking songs where you're like, this song isnt for you,
then it's like, bullshit, and if i did the same thing, etc, so like, when you're in a
band, and like people talk about side projects. our band is only like, 2 months old,
and its basically only been written down, we've never used it in practice, the name,
so like, technically we havent even started yet, and you're already talking about
side projects. look at radiohead, they never had a side project until they had like
three or four straight albums that fucking went to the top, my point is i wanna
focus on working with you, for now, and i want you to focus on working with me,"
i do want to, "and like, the point is, like, when you have two people focusing, and
like, working hard, then the product is gonna like have all this shit thats kinda
been molded from two different angles so the music would be 2 dimensional meaning
like not 2d as in boring but 2d as in more interesting than 1d. so the point is that
we have this oppertunity to explore this new interesting setup and i think we should
give it the proper go, you know? give it a proper chance" yeah definately "instead of
like, side project, before we even fuckin start heh. cause thats kinda stupid." yeah
i agree. "cause i mean" we're supposed to be working together. we are but, we need to
make goals, set out for... together. "yeah cause like you can only do so much music.
apparently 6 hours of piano bar is too many." mm hmm "so like we arents gods, and even
though we can work hard im trying to live like a normal life while also writing music
ive already done the no - life write music at all times existence and im avoiding
that this time around heh. maybe you havent tried that yet," i havent "but nows not
the fucking time to experiment with it, because you found me, and i found you," mm
hmm, "and like this is the oppertunity that we're giving ourselves by deciding to
make ourselves available to the other person, to listen to their music," yeah "accept
it, and like, add shit to it, to work with them, to jam with them, and we've like
taken it a step further and we have a relationship, maybe thats from a different angle
but i mean, if you think of it in terms of music, we've got this great support system
right now that we could use to make our band solid." yeah "that like normally when
youre just friends or less than friends that you dont give a shit," yeah and since
we're together it kinda helps put that more caring side out, " yeah and so we're like
supportive and caring and loving and also we're hardcore about the music we do so we
just need to get ourselves arranged in a position where we're not like taking away
from each other and instead putting our powers together to do something that perhaps
neither one ofus could have done alone? thats what i was thinking." yeah "and i know
youve got alot to bring to the table like you know how you want shit to sound and like
that whole thing you did yesterday was very impressive, but it was like, good, i liked
it, like, it was... different, compared to what you usually do, cause like..." you
mean when i broke up the songs? "yeah cause like it was like a totally new dynamic
like i was there and all of a sudden i had these instructions in front of me and like
" on your own song... i was weird breaking it down cause it was like... i was really
i was really concentrating on it because i wanna break it up and put like a sortof
order for it, and then i looked back on it and i was like maybe i put too many and
you were like, no, just leave it the way it is, cause i was just thinking too hard
about it, "well no cause like i didnt know you were thinking that i thought you were
just like second guessing yourself but like if you really just like had a better idea
then thats different but i mean i dunno i liked what you did and i ran with it
and i did all that recording shit and you saw how that went so like i felt like
those recordings kinda let us BOTH work together in a way that very DIFFERENT than
what we'd done before and i think that BECAUSE of that, that that was a GOOD thing,
because we NEED different stuff, if we're gonna have like, versatility and a complex
sound we wanna be able to explore all sorts of shit, and so this like was an exploration
of something we'd not normally do, it certainly wasnt a rolling stones song, and
neither was it sigur ros, it was something different and cool and like through these
experiments we'll figure out our own UNIQUE sound which is IMPORTANT heh. so we need,"
like the dance stuff that we've been trying out "yeah like that, like, you saw how
those kids were like staring at us," oh yeah, "we had," cause they were into it, it was
something different, "the entire piano bar was like suddenly transfixed on what we
were doing and suddenly they were intensely interested in it and it was surprising and
i didnt expect it but i felt their eyes burning on us," oh yeah i did too i saw sky
and james were standing behind the bar they were serving alochol and i could see
when we started playing music they came out of the bar and started to watch when usually
they continue working and then ick was laying down and he just popped up "and yeah i
mean i could feel the attention and even if we werent like fucking dead on, it was
ok, because the idea we had, was so fucking fresh, and new, and good, that people
were just like, holy shit," hehe yeah " and they couldnt even fucking talk about what
we were doing it was like one of those moments where people are just like... why the
fuck arent i playing that kinda music and like you could tell kendall was fucking
thinking it over why he wasnt playing dance punk because you could tell he was like
envious as fuck," oh yeah "i mean he already wants you back in his band, but then
he's got like this dude and this chick playing in this bar he's played for like a
fucking year, and he's probably done the same old shit for the entire year, and then
we come in, and like, in the span of a couple months, like, maybe even just like,
two, we've fucking gone through so many permutations, and he's fucking born witness
to like all of them. everyone in that fucking bar knows that somethings brewing,
somethings going on, that we're trying to figure something out, and that we're bringing
some energy to the place," oh yeah, "some excitement, and if we fucking like keep it
up, we could like try and build piano bar into like our own fucking little place,
like we could try and draw massive crowds and shit," oh that'd be awesome "yeah dude
like what if we, all the people we meet, all these musicians we tell them to come
down to the piano bar, ALL of em, maybe not musicians, but maybe random people,
anytime we find a fan of music, anytime we find someone who ikes what we do," tell em
to go to the piano bar on thursday nights "and that way we might have like 20 people
in the crowd ready to go to cheer or to dance, drinking and like, just into the music,
" then they'll be there jsut because of us, "but weneeda like, not tell people, at
the bar," no not at all, "and i mean even when they're there, we ask everyone to keep
it like, tightly shut, maybe we contact em through someone lse, like chris, we have
him get 'em to go here," yeah "so they dont know us, or they dont really have any
idea why they're there, or like, if someone asks them why theyre there, they couldnt
give a good enough explaantion so that someone could figure it out, so like, it'd be
a mystery, and so people'd come in, and we'd keep it like fight club, and like, try
and build a thursday night scene," that would be fucking amazing, "and we like try
and call it dance punk night or something all the dance punk fans in columbus we'd
try and get 'em to come down," oh yeah, "and so yeah that's one thing we could do,"
i like that idea. "this is going on blogger by the way," this's so long.

2009-01-17T08:24:00.001-08:00

anita, kitchen magician

rhyme crimes

and this time i'll be awake, so you can see the i'm awake and i'm high anita, and
you saw the tired anita last night.

and it was funny cause, every time you'd talk, i'd close my eyes, and imagine us in a different place.

2009-01-11T09:50:00.001-08:00

Interview with Sandeep Sehbi

Where are you originally from?

Well, what do you mean?

Where were you born? And where were you raised?

I was born in Deganwy Wales, and I grew up in Blackburn, Lancashire. And then Skokie, Illinois, and uhh, then uhhh, Beavercreek, Ohio. So that's the list.

When did you move away from Blackburn, Lancashire?

Well, I moved away from England when I was about ten years old. So that'd be 94-96.

What was it like when you first came into the country?

It sucked.

Why?

'Cause, it was shittty. People sucked, the city sucked, and I missed home.

How different was it for you to come to a different country? And did you keep in touch with all the people you knew?

People spoke differently, the money was different, everything was different and I didn't keep in touch with anybody.

Why not?

'Cause I was ten and I was like dealing with all differnt kinds off bullshit. Mom and dad worked a lotm the were never home, and my sister just watched tv all day while we were in school. We didn't really mix with all the kids, at least in Chicago. So it was pretty boring.

Well, enough of the depressing stuff. How long have you been playing music?

Uuuhhhmmm, well...I remember singing hyms in England, and I know I took violen lessons, and recording lessons and piano lesson, and in Beavercreek, I played trombone, and guitar in High School. Probably all my life.

That's a lot of instruments that you've learned to play. Which one was your favorite?

That's a good question. Really hard for me to tell. The guitar is pretty great.

What to play most today? And how often are you writing new songs?

Well, Iyyuuhhhh, play the guitar a lot, and I'm tryin' to write new songs every day.
Take your pants off. I'm gonna take yolur pants off for you. Move! That's better. Having fun?

What kind of music would you say that you play?

I have no fuckin' clue.

What have people called your type of musci?

They either say it's shitty or good.

How many bands have you been in?

Probably two...besides the current one.

2009-01-11T07:37:00.000-08:00

so we're gonna be trying to spit out some demos real soon

AN INTERVIEW WITH ANITA HERALD OF THE WELSH ASSEMBLY

2009-01-10T14:03:00.000-08:00

anita, where were you born

columbus ohio

how do you feel about columbus

its a shitty town - city

why the fuck do you live in columbus

i ask myself that every day

so what's the deal with this band?

we need money for gigs

what kinda music do you guys play?

blackburn...

what the fuck is blackburn?

who gives a shit. something new. why does it matter. it doesnt fucking matter to you. if you like it you like it. and you will.

do you think you're a cocky bastard?

of course not, im the nicest person in this house. look how cute i am!

do you think you're cute?

psh, duh!

so that's a no?

yeah! ( im cute )

so what other bands have you been in?

shitty one called the panhandlers, another one called the muffin tops. but that was a fun one.

how'd you get into this one?

i asked for a number and was given a myspace. at a piano bar. during an open mic.

that's all?

no. we ended up uh, jamming together, playing music like every day. and now i've moved in with uh, sandeep.

so when can we expect you to play your next show?

well ive got a goal set out for next week, meaning like this week. it just depends on what places are accepting music at this time. but im gonna make some phone calls, possibly some emails, make alotta demos, send them out places like bars erstaurants. ill see if i can get hooked up to some parties and play music for them. basically what im gonna try is see whats going on in town.

what're your influences?

i couldn't say.

you have a favorite band?

not really. i like alot of different kinds of music. but i dont necessarily have a favorite. i dont mark them as a favorite.

what was your favorite live concert?

i'd have to say MSI.

who the hells that?

i think its mindless self indulgence. im pretty sure, but im not sure!

i think that sounds about right

yeah. well they played a really good show. they got the crowd erally involved and it was pretty fuckin crazy. i uh, the entire room was a mosh pit. and it was at the newport so it was a pertty big floor of people punching the shit out of people and i went crowd surfing and couple of times, so once i got out of there the first thingi did was take a shower so much sweat from everyone flinging their hair bodies flinging everywhere. it was very energetic. the crowd was alive, along with the band.

anythin else you wanna say?

nope!

2009-01-10T06:25:00.000-08:00

so anita put together a song, should be itneresting to see how that works out with the music and stuff. we've done a couple traks like four but the uploaders down so theyre sitting on the HD.

2009-01-09T09:40:00.000-08:00

well preston asked anita and i down to the studio, ended up being a big waste of time, we sat there for perhaps six hours recording perhaps five minutes. it was terrible. we've been recording our own stuff since, we wrote four songs last night.

2009-01-07T13:25:00.001-08:00

IDEAS FOR ANOHER ALBUM

Sandeep

I wanna do the one about me going to England, when I saw the house, and I saw my friends
- “what house? Like in England. What house are you talking about. And when you saw your friends what were they doing” well the house is the second house we had in England and the third house we’d had in the united kingdom, because we had one in wales. But uh. It was in Blackburn Lancashire, and uh, yeah. We lived there til we uh moved to uh Chicago. And uh, basically, lots of memories, and uh, yeah. My last spot in England before I left and we were there for like most of my childhood. And it wasn’t huge. Have you ever haerd of a bungalow? “no. the word looks familiar.” Well a bungalow is something that’s only one story no basement or attic. “mm. so like a ranch. That’s what we call em. At least me” well yeah I guess. But uh, you wouldn’t find a ranch in England heh. “but that’s what that’s what asame thing. That’s what a bungalow is. At least that’s what you say” maybe. They might be different. They might not be entirely the same. I msure there’s lieka little difference. “its like a house right?” yeah. I just don’t like “you don’t like ranch?” the word ranch. Yeah. Heh. “heh. Heheh” and uh my friends lived down the street, and in the neighborhood, and in the town, like I went when I was seventeen and we saw the house “was that the last time you went? No. that would’ve beem awhile ago. When was the last time you went? Last year?” yeah. 08. but it was the last time we saw the house while we still owned it. So it was empty we had the key and there were still a few things of ours there .it was cool and weird. Because it was like empty the house was like falling apart the grass was like super long and there were like a hundred letters of mail in the front door cause they have letter boxes on british doors. “are those mail boxes? Like what do you mean by letter box. It’s the same thing as letter box right? You just call it letter box right? Maybe?” no. its different. “how, whats the difference” well, itsjust like a slit in the door. “oh so you just throw the mail into the door, we have those ,you –just stick the mail in the door and it gors on the floor. Right?” yeah that’s exactly right. And so we’d been gone so long that the floor was covered with em. “it was funny when you couldn’t type fast.” Was it really? “you hsuold lay back down cause I was cozy.” Hard luck heh. “hah!” anwayy so my friend sammy who I nkew since I was like 3, or 2, and he was like 2 or 1, he lived down the road, so like when I was seventeen Id known him for like.. fifteen years. And there were other kids in the neighboirhood, a guy named rahul and shivi and a few others, bobby, and a Hannah and …someone else… Sharon… and guggi. Yeah. So we met all those people. And guggis dad. So is that enough explanation? “yeah its plenty” k.

I wanna do something with this deganwys lost son thing
-“whats that?” what do you mean. “whats denawys” oh that’s a town “oh” in wales “well then uh what sthe uh deganwys lost thing.. I mean deganwys liost son thing” well its an idea I had about a story about me kindof or a story based on me about a kid who is from deganwy and gets like kidnapped and then returns when he’s like grown up and like he’s a slave while he[s gone and so like the struggles adventures friends and stuff lessons learned and how he kinda chosses to be kinda like how you chose to be during your process although not entirely the same like not entirely as benevolent but yeah. “cool” any other questions? Like it was supposed to be a story. Like a word story. That I would write out. And I kinda did the first thousand words. But I ahvent actually fleshed it out yet. “you’ve written this?” kindof. Like ive done plot summaries and then I did like the intro, but I haven’t actually started it yet “mm” like its almost too ambitious for me to do right now, because I don’t know the first thing about writing a story “hm” so icant really do shit with it, I can but I just don’t want to “hehe” because ive got like higher priority stuff right now. Itll take a long time to write, and I wanna like and I wanna use all sorts of details from my life. Maybe I’ll start again. But I was like doing it I November “of last year?” yeah basically the month I met you, if I didn’t hang out with you Id be writing the sotyr “you could still write it, you should, you should write it and finish it and uh, or maybe you could write songs” I might, like, I have a lot of ideas, “well maybe you could write like an entire album based on the story” like I did think about something like that, a movie, or a book, or a rock opera thing, not opera but, yeah, an album for the story, that was like one of my, kindof intentions. But you thin ki should do ti? “yeah definitely” why. You think it sounds cool? “yeah.” Like why. “well I mean, there’s a lot you could get fro mthe sotyr, and a lot of things you couldget out of it.” And you know I always wanted to do like a story on my life. Like in the last two ro three years. “wouldn’t this be it” kinda. This is more like, my story but with a liscense for creativety to you know not only be a story of my life, but like, a showcase of all the things I like too .all the things I think are cool, you know? “can you scratch my back, please?” kinda hard while typing. “please? Over to the left .yeah. ok!! Thank you” heh. “haha” so anyway. What else you got on this? “that’s all” no ideas about the sotry or anything “well its your story I don’t kwo what yoru stories entirely about” well I mean, what do you think would sound cool? “as far as makin the music for this story?” no “writing the story?” yeah “well you said you had all this plotted out and everything right?” kinda “is it anywhere that I could read it at” yeah. On facebook. Could show it to you now “ok. Show me show me! Show me the money” heh. “hehe” ok. I just like typing out dialogue. “I noticed” but you’ve gotta admit its kinda cool to read it “yeah its kinda like going back and forth on messaging or emailing” I think you kinda pick up on nuances on what you were saying. When you read it.

And I guess I wanna do something about the stay fresh Iceland thing

I think I wanna do something about qegs

I wanna do something about Wikipedia and free library shit

I wanna do some sorta dance stuff

I wanna do something about how one of my major goals in life has been to return to England, and how I got removed in the first place, or maybe just going to England, and like how big a deal that is to me

I wanna do something about how sweet it is to travel, like the adventure, like seeing new things, and being in amazing places, and meeting old friends, and meeting random people
- I kinda see this one as being kinda like uh, something that’s about just life, like living life, and like, I nthe moment, the best way to live basically, that a lot of peope kinda never do, but dustin hoffman seems to do it, like my favorite actors craig ferguson too, and I guess how I came from a conservative background, and how conservative people avoid living like this, like artistically creative and ri9sktaking and honest almost pure I guess

I wanna do something for how stupid it seems like for people to get paid so much money, for just playing like music and shit, or like doctors, or like how much you spend for college, and how like education has a price behind it, and how most people can’t afford it, so they’re forced into debt, which basically means education is inherited, which is kinda like a new monarchy, in the new world, which is something that they kinda tried to run from

I guess I wanan do something about how ive bene playing music for so many years, but ive never gotten paid, and how people are like youre good, but ive never tried to get a paying show, and how like for a couple years music kept me going, and how when I was a kid the only way I could get my thoughts across was music, because of all the racism and like parents not being home, kinda like just a communication form, but its also really natural too, so that’s good, it feels natural

I guess I could do one about how I like driving, like just being in the car, hearing the engine, and like feeling the engine, and how sweet it’d be to work on top gear, which’s a british tv show, like im not a huge fan of American people who like cars, but I do like that tv sow, and I guess through that tv show, I kinda enjoy cars

I could do another one about how I used to play soccer, about how we used to run around in the cones and stuff, and like, sometimes it’d snow someties it’d rain, but we had this sense of comradery and stuff, kinda like the military or something, us against them, and we all like gave our all for the teams, was kinda cool, and definitely something that I use a lot, like in daily life

We should both do a song about guilt, cause you’ve got your friend, and ive got my friend, and I guess we could tell our respective stories, cause that’s something we’ve been talking about, and there’d definitely be a lot of emotion behind it, and maybe it could be split into two different songs, but I mean we could easily do them together to

We could do one about the piano bar, about how we’re always there, and how we can play there forever, and how like we know everybody there, and like remember the kiss, where like I wanted you to kiss in front of your gay friends, and you were embarrassed but you actually did it, and that was pretty cool, cause I was impressed as hell, and it was pretty awesome

What about your trip “oh in Tennessee god that was terrible” yeah I think that that would be good, you could talk about how your friend was just trying to get at you, “it was like not being able to do anything that I wanted to do, when I know that I was there to have fun with family and friends, and just ended up sitting around the house doing absolutely nothing” and it sounded like it sucked, “it did” and cause I couldn’t visit “mm hmm” and how like your friend was being racist or whatever, “yeah” and that’s what I was saying he kinda did that to get at you, cause he knew I wasn’t gonna hear it, “yeah” he was just giving you a hard time in any way he could. So really how good of a friend was he, “not very” kinda of a douchebag heh, “an asshole”

I wanna do something about how maybe I wanna start a company or something, like some kindof organization, where all my friends can get involved, and we’ll do cool stuff. You know how andy Warhol had his own thing. And the guy from the sex piostols did public limited. And then the guy from virgin started virgin. There’s a lot of companies and shit that you can do. And its important to get your friends jobs and help them out. Cause they need someone to look out for them. And that’s kinda like a hip hop vibe. But its also like a rock and roll vibe too. Like punk do it yourself. And also a bit of 60s revolution. As well as a bit of sikh. The first sikh guy looked at two religions and made a third one up. He… he looked at Hinduism and islam and made one up. So he was a free thinker and you’ve got Malcolm x and uh, martin luther king, mahatma Gandhi, nelson Mandela, john lennon, all these different people, standin up for people, and its kinda like a tradition I wanna follow in, that’s like where the impulse to work in parliament comes from, as well as this, kinda. Its also like partly entrepreneur too. Money makes the world go round after all. That’s where the hip hop vibe comes from. Cash money records. And helping out your community. And like the Indian community how they suck. And how I like want to build a new Indian community. Kinda like in the style of how hip hop creates stuff, and punk, political shit, and anyone who stood up for what they believe in. I come from a line of people who stand up in what they believe in. Indians freed india from islam. Sikhs did. They were the warriors. The hindus would send their sons to be Sikhs. And they were like speciallytrained soldiers. Like some sort of dojo with monks. So the idea is kinda to make a difference.

I could do one about how I want that friend to start that clothing company, “what clothing company” you know the one I told you about ni Colorado. “oh yeah” he does t shirts, or at least that’s what he wants to do “oh you mean the one that’s wants to uh… ok nevermind, I know who youre talking about. Cause I remember you mentioning it in the car ride” cool. Yeah cause like, if he did it, it could be cool, “yeah” and I could wear his shit at shows and uh he could promote me too .it’d be cool. Plus I get cool shirts. And maybe id be able to give him pictures and put them on shirts. Maybe he could make us band shirts. You know that kinda stuff “yeah”

How about hwo we need to do a record that has like real meaning to it, where like, we do songs that’re ambitious and thought out, we spend more time and we take more risks too instead of just in the moment. “yeah” cause like that’d be a song about taking risks. Risks thatre worth taking. But a risk none the less. See what I mean? “yeah”

Anita

My trip around the country I guess

Something about all the people I know that’ve died this year ( in the past year )

( dance stuff ) Me too.

The drugs that ive used

I could do one about how I used to dance. Like uh, basically how like the entire dance class was a huge family, that looked out for each other, and everyone had a big show, we’d watch each others backs and uh, help each other out when someone was stressed out about something.

The fear of being put under, “huh?” like when youre going to surgery youre put to sleep for the whole procedure. “and you don’t like that?” no not at all. Cause like youre being operated on and you don’t know what is going on you don’t know what could go wrong cause your asleep. Its like youre paralyzed for hours while people are just cutting you open. “kinda like a spider” yeah “biting the victim” yeah “and what else can you say about that” just like before you are put under youre perfectly normal youre just a little afraid because its before the entire surgery or whatever so you don’t know whats gonna happen then you wake up its like you cant talk you cant breath “crazy” and youre surrounded by people you don’t know or never seen before nothing youre familiar with “I had an experience like that. I’ve woken up in the hospital before” yeah. “that’s a good one”.

What its like having really nobody to someone is all you need. To one person. “oh to one person. Oh you mean not needing anybody” no. “what do you mean” like what its having noone to having someone. “so going from nothing to something” mm hmm. To everything. “really” mhmm “so basically… so basically about us” mm hmm. “interesting. OK. So you kinda felt like you had nothing” well as far as people who cared, yeah. “that’s no good. Well at least you feel like you’ve got someone now. And I say feel like because you probably had people before. Although those people might’ve been people who you could’nt have gotten any good from” no. example: a friend from Tennessee. “heh”.

“well how about your shitty home life” yeah “like how people just kinda fuck with you. I mean isn’t that kinda fucked up” mm hmm. “what do you think”like the whole insurance thing? How like my mom took me off the insurance because im not living there anymore? “did she do that when you moved out?” yep. “you mean like” Not like as soon as I moved out but I think a month after I moved out. “so not like when you moved out here” no. “like with me” uh uh it was before that it was like in mid july so like a couple months after I moved out. “interesting. I was leanin more towards how you got hit in the face with shit. And how like yoru dad strangled you and shit. And then your grandfather. You had alotta shit happen to you.” Yeah “and you could toss it all into one topic. Or you could split it up, go into more detail, but I think it’d be good just to do it all in one go” yeah “at least at first. You don’t wanna jump in and be all in depth. Like you never have to mention the word sex. You know?” yeah “but you could like allude to it. Like artfully. You know?” mm hmm. “like what do you think you should do” as far as writing about my past “yeah” write about it. “but which bits” like uh, how my dad was always drunk, he couldn’t take care of his own kids, he was never home, my mom was never home because she was always working or just going to school and then how my dad put a lock on the fridge so that we couldn’t eat until he got home and some of those nights he wouldn’t even come home, and how I basically … by the age of 3 I was changing my little brothers diapers, taking care of hi,, and feeding the dogs, by seven I was cooking breakfast and dinner, “and what else” it was like I wasn’t even allowed to live how a child should “but the remarkable thing is how much of a child you are now” hehe “I mean you don’t seem like all mature so you kinda made it through somehow which is cool, you know what I mean?” no “because like, sometimes people cant even laugh, youre not like an emotional cripple” uh uh “youre more like a very outgoing person, so you kinda responded to the challenge, and even though you kinda regret that they even made you do it, that you actually persevered, which is important on its own. Cause if you failed then you’d be a fuckup” that’s what my dad used to call me “yeah and uh, you proved him wrong, look at you now. Hmm? Youre more normal than most people I know” hehe “I mean its true. Youre pretty damn normal” hehe “so I mean that’s kinda like your bragging rights, I made it through and im still myself” hehe “you didn’t like have an impact on me, you know? I mean yeah you have memories” everybody does, its not like it can just go away, “but the point is, that you make decisions based upon what you think is right. You were responsible with your brother” yeah “and then uh” my older sister “when you went to uh, rehab, and you uh talked to your uh friend, you told her to get off the stuff” yeah “that was responsible too. You responded to a bad situation by becoming a brilliant individual. Ever heard of a guy called nelson Mandela” yeah “25 years in jail. And then he became president. Crazy huh?” mm hmm. Hehe. “youre like nelson Mandela” how. “because you were in jail when you were a kid. And youre anice person. There’s two ways to respond to challenge. And you picked nelson Mandelas way. Martin luther king. Mahatma Gandhi. All that shit. You took that road. Whichs pretty crazy. You know?” yeah. “do you believe it?” I can see it. “but do you like actually… believe it. Huh? Do you?” Yeah. “really?” mm hmm. “you use that word too much” haha. Its like my favorite word. Mmmmhmmm! wait which one yeah or mmhmm? “you know which one” haha.

Anita: mmm…. Heh. ( eating banana ) ( laughing with banana in mouth ) hahaha delete that. No~ hee hee . here

(drops bana peel on asndeep )

Sandeep” what the fuck

Anita: